The ones who have been close to me recently know that my previous age has contained intense, tough and sad times in it. Maybe it has been a tiresome age for me, but when I look back now, I realize that it has also been very fruitful. My 34th age has been the one in which I learnt a lot, I grew up considerably and I made up with myself and life.
This has been a "make up" age, why?
In this past age I did something for the first time for myself; and that was something I could not do for many years. I put a step forward for art. I started the Painting Analysis Workshop. Instead of thinking that I victimized myself and wasted my talents, I took action this time. I worked with passion, devoutness and enthusiasm; I presented, I shared... As I kept doing these, my passion, devoutness and enthusiasm grew more. I tried not to leave any regrets on wrong choices or wasting talents. The participants of my workshop must have clearly seen the pleasure I got from teaching and sharing my love for art. I made up with the side of me that kept on postponing or hesitating to make a step forward although it knew that I would get so much pleasure out of that.
In this past age I tried to conduct better relations with people. Maybe I could not forget the ones who broke my heart, but I forgave them, I opened new pages for myself and them. I tried to mend the hearts I have broken, they may not forget as well, but I tried to make them forgive me at least. I made up with the disappointments and expectations.
In this past age, I got one step closer to accept myself with my mistakes and imperfections. I learned to love and accept myself as I am. I made up with the last 6-7 years spent during this acceptance process. Time does not matter if you are at the point where you wanted to be eventually.
I have built a fortress of people around me who accept as who I am, with the identity I have. Every single one of them is invaluable to me, they did not leave me alone in tough times. They did not let me succumb to my fears of being left alone, and they showed that they will be with me whoever I am. I made up with my entourage.
Having made peace with my previous age and starting a new one, I now feel strongest than ever. And I will not let anyone or anything to take this strength away from me...
To new ages to live through... Happy birthday...
This has been a "make up" age, why?
In this past age I did something for the first time for myself; and that was something I could not do for many years. I put a step forward for art. I started the Painting Analysis Workshop. Instead of thinking that I victimized myself and wasted my talents, I took action this time. I worked with passion, devoutness and enthusiasm; I presented, I shared... As I kept doing these, my passion, devoutness and enthusiasm grew more. I tried not to leave any regrets on wrong choices or wasting talents. The participants of my workshop must have clearly seen the pleasure I got from teaching and sharing my love for art. I made up with the side of me that kept on postponing or hesitating to make a step forward although it knew that I would get so much pleasure out of that.
In this past age I tried to conduct better relations with people. Maybe I could not forget the ones who broke my heart, but I forgave them, I opened new pages for myself and them. I tried to mend the hearts I have broken, they may not forget as well, but I tried to make them forgive me at least. I made up with the disappointments and expectations.
In this past age, I got one step closer to accept myself with my mistakes and imperfections. I learned to love and accept myself as I am. I made up with the last 6-7 years spent during this acceptance process. Time does not matter if you are at the point where you wanted to be eventually.
I have built a fortress of people around me who accept as who I am, with the identity I have. Every single one of them is invaluable to me, they did not leave me alone in tough times. They did not let me succumb to my fears of being left alone, and they showed that they will be with me whoever I am. I made up with my entourage.
Having made peace with my previous age and starting a new one, I now feel strongest than ever. And I will not let anyone or anything to take this strength away from me...
To new ages to live through... Happy birthday...
